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Pearl I by Evil-Sasha Pearl I :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 0 0 Ms Death by Evil-Sasha Ms Death :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 0 0 The holiday spirit by Evil-Sasha The holiday spirit :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 5 2 Happy Birthday Maria by Evil-Sasha Happy Birthday Maria :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 0 0 Naughty Tea Time by Evil-Sasha Naughty Tea Time :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 2 0 Selfie by Evil-Sasha Selfie :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 2 0 Mad Hatter more like Demon Hatter by Evil-Sasha Mad Hatter more like Demon Hatter :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 0 0 Dreams of Wonderland by Evil-Sasha Dreams of Wonderland :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 0 0 The Hatter by Evil-Sasha The Hatter :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 0 0 Mad Tea Time by Evil-Sasha Mad Tea Time :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 1 0 Tea Time by Evil-Sasha Tea Time :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 1 0 A walk in the park by Evil-Sasha A walk in the park :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 1 0 White Rabbit by Evil-Sasha White Rabbit :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 0 0 Olga III by Evil-Sasha Olga III :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 2 0 Olga II by Evil-Sasha Olga II :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 3 2 Olga I by Evil-Sasha Olga I :iconevil-sasha:Evil-Sasha 1 0


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Anyone who does anything even remotely creative has had to, I'm sure, deal with creative block at least once. There are many articles about it, videos on YouTube, blog posts, and here's another one.
At the beginning of the year I went through a rather unpleasant experience, that not only changed my life, but had a huge impact on my fundamental perception of life, love, relationships, and friendship. With the time that has already passed, I can say that I am still in the process of recovering, and on bad days it feels like I'm not even halfway there.
Around mid-Spring I started making first baby steps towards returning to a normal life, and to art. I took pictures, and sometimes I enjoyed it, and other times I didn't at all, and I couldn't (and, looking back, still can't) put my finger on the reason why it felt so different. Something small would change and I would lose the fun of an entire project.
So... I gave up. After the June exhibition I put my camera down and haven't picked it up for over three months (save for that one time I made about 5 frames of a pregnant friend's belly). I didn't feel like doing anything photography-related, so I didn't do it. I drew a few little pencil sketches that I later instagrammed, but that was as far as my creativity went.

Until about two weeks ago, when a friend of mine (well, technically he's my ex, but that's not relevant to the story) came in touch and said hey, so I made this costume of Carroll's White Rabbit for a LARP, and I think it's pretty rad - would you mind taking some pics of it? and I agreed before I could think about refusing, and then another friend joined us as the Mad Hatter and, before I knew, we'd spent an extremely fun day shooting what turned out to be a pretty alright set. I loved every second of it, and right now we are pretty enthusiastic about shooting some more stuff together, maybe getting more people involved, but maybe not, we'll have to wait and see how it goes.
It feels like I've been reunited with a good old friend, and I couldn't ask for more.

I guess, the gist of this story is that it's okay to let go of things, even if they seemed vitally important at one point. If they really are - you'll come back to them, sooner or later, and if you don't, that means you'll have a chance to move on and find something better and more important, and I think that's absolutely fine.

That being said, I must also add I have a new-found respect for people whose creative outlet is their job, because their creativity and creative productivity directly affects their livelihood. Guys, you have it tough. If I had to power my way through photography when I'd lost all interest I would have probably ended up irreparably disgusted by it.

TL/DR: it feels good to be back.
For now.


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The first most important thing that defines my life - I am disabled - have been since early childhood.
Since then I had been told many times what I can't do, shouldn't do and won't become. So I decided to spend the rest of my life checking to see whether there really are that many things I am incapable of doing. So far - not too much .) Of course, I still got a long list and a long way ahead of me - and I'm enjoying every step.


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SajaLyn Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you very much for the fave :)
Evil-Sasha Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
The pleasure is mine :]
JJFGG Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the :+fav:
piove Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks for the fave:)
Coramina Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the fav :-)
omoniko Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank You for adding my work to favourites. Check my other photos on my gallery - [link] :heart:
johs19 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav :3
grohsARTig Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
thanks for faving my "happiness" :) :squee: [link]
Evil-Sasha Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
It was well worth faving :]
grohsARTig Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
thanks again :hug: i really appreciate it!!....if you like please like [link] :) would be very nice of you :) greetings from germany :)
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